When I was a kid, I almost drowned in the deep end. There were lots of people around, just no one watching me. I remember panicking at first, not being able to breathe, kicking and flailing and then after a fashion, peace. As I began to go limp, someone pullled me up from the depths and brought me back. I don’t remember much else, just that sense of coming back. It was an experience I will never forget.
Since that time, I’ve met a few people who have had the same thing happen to them. One lady was held hostage along with a group of other people and she said that the gunman actually placed the gun at her temple and threatened to fire. At first she was panicked, wanted to fight, and then a peace came over her, she was ready for whatever happened. She lived to tell the tale, but from that day on never feared death.
I think that sometimes we fight so hard for something that we want that it feels as if our hearts are going to explode before we ever see that positive outcome. But instead, to our suprise, there is a peace that comes just before we are pulled from the wreckage of our silent reverie. If you don’t know, the last half of that line came from “The Arms of the Angel.” It was a song written about a band member who accidently took his life in a hotel room, but the lyrics oddly enough, have served to bring a peace to many people.
It’s strange that babies have to go through a long arduous trek to be born. It is an ordeal, easier for some, more complicated for others, but still the first lesson in the existence of living on your own on this planet. The work ethic is born in that very same moment that we become aware that we no longer claim entitlement to that warm spot inside of our mother, where food and comfort were a wellspring away from her heart. But just as we learned that, we were rewarded with the knowledge that there were others, a life outside of ourselves that would take us away and teach us many more very important lessons.
At the end of each of these lessons, there is peace. If you do not know peace, it means the lesson has not yet concluded. You have not yet been born to it. So life teaches us reward and death teaches us acceptance. In every breath there is a lesson. And the lesson here is to keep on breathing, because the more you know, the more you grow and the more peace you feel. Keep reading, it gets better.
So maybe, just maybe we have to get through all of this tough stuff to reach that peace. We have to reach that place where we realize that we can not go it alone. We have to drown just enough to learn to surrender and give God the reigns, to see that he has your back, your heart and your soul. There are some things that no one can teach us, we have to learn them on our own. For instance, that everything does indeed happen for a reason and that you will learn what you need to know to move on and evolve and that everything in the universe will work out just the way it is supposed to. Most importantly, you learn that you are a part of even the biggest thing that happens to this universe as you are connected, part of the very fabric of everything and everyone that exists. And if that’s not exciting enough to stick around for, I don’t know what is….
The event of my drowning took place whilst I was staying with friends of my parents who belonged to a country club. When these people turned to thank the person who had saved my life, this person was no where to be found. Whether an angel or human, I am eternally grateful for the second chance to live out my future. Once again, Thank you God, for everything:)
Philippians 4:7 "And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Onward and Upward!!!